How Are You Doing?

“How are you doing?”

I often hate this question, because so frequently it requires me to lie. Not because I’m a liar, but because must people don’t really want to know how you are; they’re just being polite. So often I’m, “Meh.” Other times, I’m “not good” or”hanging in there.” Some days, I’m great. Mostly, “I’m fine.”

Today, aside from being exhausted from a less than sleep-filled night, I’m actually feeling great. Last night the hubs and I went to a fundraiser for Tomorrow’s Child. It’s an organization fast helps educate people about SIDS, but also provides bereavement support for families and bereavement education for professionals (nurses, social workers, etc.). Our friends from church who also suffered the loss of a child put us in contact with them after Colin died, and we’ve participated in two Baby Walks, helping them to raise funds for all they do for families. I met another BLM (baby loss mom), who was lovely and still grieving–hard. We talked and cried and exchanged information. I know I’ll see her at the walk in September for sure, but hopefully sooner, too.

We also bid on and won some great silent auction items, including the litho and Pewabic tile seen above. We spent way more than we planned, but it was fun and for a great cause! We are also the proud owners of a family membership to The Henry Ford, which I hope we can use this weekend!
But the best thing that happened was meeting Mary Adkins, the Interim Executive Director/Program Director of Tomorrow’s Child. We stood and talked with her and Carol Facca (who is in charge of Development) about Tomorrow’s Child’s bereavement program. We shared our story with Mary. Carol told her how we got involved with the organization, and I mentioned my work with Still Standing. They were very interested and Mary mentioned needing help with their newsletter and website. So, I may have another opportunity to help bereaved families through my writing. I’ll be following up in a day our so, but I am still thunderstruck by all that is suddenly happening in my writing life! And it’s happening because of our Colin and the effect he’s had on us and the rest of this world and will continue to have through me and my family’s activism on behalf of CHD warriors and bereaved families!

So, how am I feeling?

Today? Tired but happy.

Tomorrow? Who knows.

One day at a time. I’m trying to enjoy this moment.

There will be time for tomorrow, tomorrow.